i have not been cryin for such a long long time already.

felt so dejected. moodless, helpless, lost.
tell me.. where can i do? what can i do? how should i do?

i know cryin dont help to improve the situation. but beside crying, what else shld i do? who can help me?

argh.........


its back to the feelings of loneliness...
with family and a home, but without warmth.

what i need is care and concern
not words that add on injuries to my injured heart.

Princess ended @
1:15 AM

my beach peeps!

i love them to the core... the jokes, the laughtes, the fun...

oh my. i am glad that i will be stayin at beach info.. =)

when we are bored, we will do crazy stuffs..... yes.. didt i mention that i love to bite?? look at "spicy's" face! and the "sexy" face, aka SOS 2


Princess ended @
10:55 PM

it had been a long time before i had time to sit down in front of my lappy and typed a decent post.

i took MC today. really sick. not bluffed. but i supposed the doc who saw me dont believe i am sick. cox she was rushin all her way while i was under her consultation. and her first question was. "do u need MC?"

duh. i need lar. i need to submit to my work place. but i suspects that she thinks i am still a student although she asked me if i am working or studying..

went to cut my fringe. initially wanted to cut my hair short. but. nO courage. cox i love the way my hair is right now. except for the fringe that is frequently disturbing my eyes.

yupz. i want longer hair.. =)

anyway. i am rejected by NUS. the moment of depression just flowed in when i check my online application status. the first thing that came into my mind was how am i supposed to face my parents. i really felt like busting into tears lar.. hmm.. the teary season is approaching soOOn.. =(

my poor ears are goin to be in bad conditions sOOOn.. when the letter of rejection is being sent to my home.. ahhh.. i just hope that piece of paper will dissappear...

and NTU, accept me pls... hahas..

overrall.. tt stupid rejection spoiled my day. perhaps in the beginning i shld have put FASS as first choice. then i confirm will get in. =X. whatever..

humans are definatly contridicting and greedy creatures..
when i am schooling.. i feel like working.
when i am working.. i feel like taking off..
when i am off.. i feel so bored..

argh.. what do i want?

so tired today. my MC is supposed for me to rest. but i had to shift my furnitures.. cox i had to switch rooms with my brother. supposedly, by switching rooms, it would be better for us and our future according to the feng shui master...

wells. we shall see.. i dont know.. the things that he said abt my characters are so true. so.. will what he says abt my future be true also?

what he said are good. but when i read abt the details he gave, they are bad. real bad. so which am i supposed to be looking at??? hahas...

life is full of unpredictables..

oh yar.. i have so many movies that i wanted to watch!
who wants to go on a movie date with me????

Princess ended @
10:58 PM

yesterday was my first time being 'partime' for SOS.

wah laoz eh.. is HOT AND WARM AND TIRING de lor.. cox u always have to say..

"how many tickets?"
"7.40 or 8.40?"

"next pls"

and is use stand de lor.. stand for a few hrs with the spot lights on top of u.. wahha.. but its fun lor.. wahha.. only have the luxuary to help out when i have no sales for islander.

then today so tired... almost couldn't wake up in time.. zzZZzz..

tmr.. i dont feel like working manz... so tired.. and i still have to shift my room..

and.. where is my uni lettersssssS?????? everybody's getting theirs and mine haven come... lost in mail or what. wah laoz eh.. come come come faster lar..

hahas..
i am crazyy.. i crapped for like a few days liaozz.z..

Princess ended @
11:25 PM

生病的感觉真不好受..
快点让我好起来吧...

可恶的病菌..
快快远离我...

人们常说
恋爱时才会生病..

哦.. 难到我恋爱了?
哈哈..

才不呢..

因为....
我身旁多了许多真正关心我的人..

太幸福了..
所以太陶醉了..

一时大意..
没照顾好自己..

Princess ended @
10:45 PM

rahhh...

i am feeling sad. cox hafiz is going to leave soOOnn....

haix..

Princess ended @
11:21 PM

my dearest genie is so nice to fetch me fm work today!

hungry me went to eat toast bread with him... =) and i saw MR X. ok. he didt saw me at toast box.. i think he is on the way to st james..

oh wells...

and i played with his phone camera.. =P


Princess ended @
1:02 AM

the second bouquet of th year...


Princess ended @
8:23 PM

yOOo hOO..

met up with MAO MAO... =)

went to eat sakae sushi.. the last time i ate sakae was like one yr ago.. with Mao MAO also...




we order ALOT!!! i think enf for 4 person.. but we only have 2 person..
and the food came all at the same time lar... irritataing. cox it will turn cold. =X

see.. this is not the full set of our dinner wor..

and the aftermath of eating everything up. =) mostly eaten by mao mao i would say.. wahhha..


Princess ended @
8:11 PM

mother's day!

first time spending with grandma and cousins..

well.. my father is nice enf to fetch me after work for the mother's day dinner. cox its at YISHUN.

the place that i want to forget yet always end up there. =X

well.. i am bored in the car. so started my cam whoring and got 讲 by my brother. =X maybe he jealous i nver take pics with him.. wahha..

anyway.. yester while waiting for my father, i went to do abit of last min shopping...

soOO.. i went into chocolat factory.. annndddd.. this SUPER CUTE guy served me.. wahha.. he is so frenly lar.. keep chatting with me.. then he lOOKED so cute when he smile... wahha. then i was very choosy over the chocolates that i wanted. he ok with it wor...

hahas.. but then. he had a sweet mouth. =X maybe he is like tt to all the customers...

after which, i left the shop happily.. but then.. when i wanted to buy something else, i realised i could not find my card! wah laoz. panic de sia. so i went back to the choco factory to ask tt cute guy if my card is there. he also panic lar..

but then... stupid me, found out the card is in my hp pouch. =X is pai seh de lor. but then he say.. nice to meet me.. wahha... =P

ok. back to the dinner.. well.. the dinner was alright ba.. not very fasinating.. the only thing that is special is that we have a room to ourselves with KTV wor.. wahha. but then. the songs are.. -_-" okok.. and then... the service is abit bad wor. i was so pissed i directly glared at the waitress and give her a bad face. i think she was afraid of me.. wahhha.. in the end the manager came to serve us...

anyway.. ok lor. nothin much. then i presented the flowers and chocos to grandma, mother and aunt. so nice to see them smile so sweetly..

my uncle he damm funny lar. when the manager ask, how many mothers are there? he say 10 wor.. wahha..


从前, 那是个让我觉得幸福的天地.
如今,却是个悲伤基地.

不知不决
来到那里
回忆到带

很想回去
去到当时的那快乐时光.
早知如此.

当时的我就会大声的对你说
很肯定的对你说.

你会是我的唯一.
虽然不会是天长地久.
但会维持很久.

可惜...
一切都太迟了.

是你受不了我的犹豫
还是你找到了可以令你感受到诚意的人?

Princess ended @
11:14 PM

its my papa's birthday!


happy birthday to u keith!

another fren that is very 细心. =)

Princess ended @
10:44 AM

wOO hOO..

yesterday was a day of fun and excitment! vincent brought us to play LUGE for freeeee!!!! =)
he brought me, hafiz, ryan and wei liang along. and we are entittled to FOUR free rides... whhheeee...

hahas...

the first round, i was 2nd in place. vincent damm power lah he.. i overshot me and got the first place. i attempted to block his way but failed. =X

the 2nd round i was first! =) ahahs. pure luck la..

them 3rd round, that ryan.. he blocked all my ways! almost able to overtake him. but well.. its ok.

4th round, me and hafiz went on leisure. we take our time to luge down, tryin to enjoy the scnery.. i still have the time to look at the stars..

taking the sky ride is so nice. while lookin up in to the sky. u felt that u are basked under the sea of stars. so bright. but, so near yet so far. as we proceed on higher up, the stars seemed to be futther away.. why?

me and hafiz both we gazing at the stars while on the last sky ride. i think ryan was abt to fall asleep any moment if we did not joke. wahha..

then me and weiliang proceed to SOS. oOO.. fire works! =) i still love to watch SOS.

anyway. i just realised that the path to my house actually has a nice view for stars. this day. i was bored while walkin home late night. so i stopped to stare at the moon. and to my suprise, i saw twinking stuffs.. oh my god. i simply stopped and stare. they are much much similar to the one i saw with precious the other day. just that the atmosphere is differnt.

argh. my stomach is rioting again. =X

Princess ended @
12:24 AM

today's my dad's birthday..
but he is not in singapore to celebrate with him. well...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY daddy!

soo many ppl's birthday around the corner...... all tarus.. =X


anyway. i failed my FTT. sucks.. have to take again! and its in july wor... sSUPER LONG. then how am i goin to drive to sch????? =(

Princess ended @
8:13 PM

happy bithday wei hong!

on this special day of urs, may u always be urself and stay cheerful each day.

thanks for always being there for me, listening to my troubles, always worrying abt me, taking care of me..

may ur wishes come true..


Princess ended @
11:08 PM

to tell the truth,
i am actually very upset.

To:
the one who was so dear to me,
the one who brought me laughter and joy.
the one who added colors to my life,
the one who enlightened me
the one who always made me smile like an idiot
the one whom i feel comfortable with
the one who never fails to leave my mind,
the one whom i always wanted to care
the one whom i always wanted to know better.
the one whom i nver understood
the one whom i always smsed
the one who brought me a sky full of stars
the one whom i always wanted to see the smile



the one who i wanted more attention from
the one who i wished can provide me with more love
the one whom can give me suprise
the one who can appreciate me
the one who kept me outside the closed heart
the one whom i wish can be more decisive
the one whom i wish can be more truthful
the one who can tell me what exactly happens
the one who nver answered my phone calls
the one who left without a note
the one who made me teared
the one who ignored me frequently
the one who deleted me from the contacts

the one who hate crowds
the one who loves to drink
the one who has little patience

the one who used to love me.

where are u?

u are the one who opened the doors, i was the one who wrote the chapters. yet before the chapters are done, u closed the doors without warning, with any signals...

u held my hands and yet u let go at the point when i dont even know how to walk.

perhaps. i am just a substitute....
perhaps u were nver serious before
perhaps i expected too much
perhaps i wanted things to be perfect
perhaps i became bored for u..

i will wait. till the day u urself is willing to give me an explaination..
but i know chances are slim.....


goodbye..
goodbye..
goodbye precious..
goodbye my love..
goodbye memories..

Princess ended @
10:58 PM

yester was my declared off =)

went for my Final theory trial.

FAILED. =X

i always fail the trial one. cox i didt study much? yeah. let me pass the actually one will do. after which, rushed off to korean lessons..

woo hOo.. its so fun!
zy was the only guy in class lar. i think he is so pai seh. but so sweet of him to accompany me despite having no interest in that lang.. wahha.. he call the language "hua fu" language lar. cox its like drawin some "zu zou" like that.

btw. i realised my english ablitity dropped like how 911 tower topple ah. i just cant seems to find the correct substitution for many words. terrible..

Princess ended @
10:52 PM

K boxed!

yeah yeah.. the last one was like mths ago!

went with my beloved beach peeps and my new ic IRIN.. we were all busy singing lar. when its turn to rest, we are busy camera whoring.. woOO hOO.. k box makes us smilezzz..

away from SOS. away from irritating guestss...


Princess ended @
9:26 PM

did i mention i want to watch summer palace???

BUT ITS AN R21 show...

who wants to go with me? or rather.. who can bring me go??? if i go and buy the tickets, that person down there sure demand for my ic de lar...


bring me gooooooOoooo...........

Princess ended @
10:18 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!

i almost forgot its my mum birthday until my brother wishes my mum in the morning.. so guilty..

and i didt know what to buy for her as a present. well.. thanks to keith, who went shopping around with me. bought a birthday cake home in the end.. =)

thank you keith!

now.. i have to think of what to buy for my daddy present in a week's time..
i choke on popcorns while i was eating them la. =X

Princess ended @
10:04 PM

BUSYNESS..

busineess forr islander today is GOOD. soooo many applications till i didt have time to look at SOS. ususally i would float over to help them. but. today was too tied up with all the applications myself that i was still doing application at 8pm when i am supposed to leave..

woOO hOo.. a guest actualy tot me how to use paint. wahha.. and it actually works on our system.. oPps.. i am have such a lousy service right. still need the help of the guest. well. what ever. i think i used up almost an hr to do his aplication.

Damm hungry la today. i think all the energy used up to 应付 all those problematic guests.. some guests are dunNo dumb or stupid. no matter how many times u say, how many different ways u say. they just dont understand u...

grrr.. but.. nvm..

had supper with my dearest beeeaaachhh peeps.. had lots of talks and jokes. as usual.. laugh non-stop...

yawwnnnzz... tmr working morning.. need to sleep..


oh yar. my wound is healing already.. =) but it itches... like mad.. and my grandma was so cute. when she first saw my wound, she say..

'aiyo' 女孩子的脚怎么弄成这样.
then i tell her i know against cupboard when i work.. all(grandma plus parents) believed me eh.. -_-"

yar. my mum only realised it 3 days later that i hurt myself.. if not for my grandma. i believe shee wont even noticed lar... just like she always dont know if i fell sick or not.

Princess ended @
12:20 AM