where are all the fun and laughters we used to have? where did our understanding of each other go? where did all our close feelings go to?
why did this happen?
we hardly have time for each other already.. and yet.. we quralled again..
i believe.. not only wend who misses the old days.. me xinz and tingz.. we all do miss the days where we four went crazy together dun we?
can we go back to the past?
why cant juz put down all the bad memories and feelings and tots tt u have? i admit.. we are all busy with our new lives.. we juz didt have time to show care and concern.. but at least.. the 3 of us still have the same tots.. tt is "we 4 of us will still be together No matter wat happen"
isnt this the thing tt bring us together? even thou we may not reply ur sms.. did not bother to call and chat with u.. didt reply ur good nite messages.. but deep in out hearts.. we all feel the same.. we know we do care for each other.. u do knew it also right? so why cant u juz stick to tt? why let ur mind run wild?
we might nOt talk veri often.. but we do still make an effort to ask each other out right? we do.. at least.. we still have some time together.. the 3 of us still enjoy the times we spend together.. why dont u? why cant u juz relax urself and convert back into ur oldself?
i am not saying tt having a change is Not good.. but no matter wat u did or wat u felt with ya new frens.. can u juz go back to the feelings u had when u were with us? and not introduce new stuffs for us to adapt? for us to accept?
me xinz and wend.. we hardly sms or call and chat.. but when we were on msn yester.. i juz felt we were no difference from last time.. we still chat and laugh.. wend and xinz are still the same as last time.. we even have lots of same tots! all the stuffs we mentioned or suggested.. are wat each other had tot of.. can u imagine the delights we have when we saw the words we typed out are the same?? we have the same thinkings.. we cant hear each other voices.. but.. i can feel the excitment in us.. i can feel it!! u tell me.. can u have this kinda mo4 qi4 with ur frens? u say u will feel left out if u join us.. but.. u didt even wanna try.. how can u say tt? we 3 can do it.. why cant u?
yes.. we four are now in different schs.. with different lifestyles and friends.. but wats wrong with tt? as long as we still have each other in our hearts.. i think tt enf.. showing or not showing ur care and concern does not matter.. for we noe truely in our hearts.. we do care..
u said ur efforts done are always neglected.. not being recognised by us.. but.. have u try to accept the efforts done by others? all of us were not free to attend des's bbq.. but other frens of ke xin had the time.. did we ever attended the performance by ke xin durin chinese new yr? none of us did.. but ke xin's classmated did.. her frens did.. can u juz feel the pain and dissappointment? u cant blame ke xin for being harsh.. i can feel it.. it is juz the same when ur didt come for any of my choir concerts.. all those who came were classmates which i dun expect them to turn up.. but.. they juz surprise me.. u Noe wat they say.. they say "how can we dun support our own classmates?" and then.. i was thinkin.. my closest frens.. dun even support me.. busy.. tts the excuse.. i accept it.. i kNew ur are realli busy.. but.. the hurt is there..
so.. everybody does have some hurt here and there..but.. we dun show it out.. at least.. we forget abt it when four of us come together.. time is precious.. we juz want to put all our happy moments together.. and we did.. we enjoyed ourselves.. and u? i dont know wat are u thinking.. u juz dun enjoy urself when u r with us.. we try so hard.. we wanted to please each other.. but u noe perfectly.. there isnt a way which suits all of us.. tots and thinkings are juz different.. we juz have to compromise.. is compromising tt difficult?
everytime when we go out.. there are bound to be something tt happen.. sometimes u would juz give the look.. as if u r bored.. u dun feel good with us.. do u give this kinda attitude to ur other frens? then why show it to us? i read ke xin's blog.. she might always be having fun with her frens out there.. but when she is with us.. at least she still enjoy herself also.. she didt give the bored look face.. so why are u givin??
remember tt day i was telling ke xin i wanted to go sentosa with ur.. cox it had been long since we ever steped there together.. i told her even before the holidays start.. both of us are so excited and we wish the day come faster.. even wend agreed on it too.. when i heard u saying " i dun feel like going" can u imagine how dissappointing it was? i myself was sOOOOO disappointed.. i juz couldn't think of a proper way to let the other 2 girls know ur decision.. all of us were so disappointed..
didt u always go sentosa to play? remember last yr.. u juz kept going on the sentosa with ur other frens.. sO.. when its the turn for us to go together.. u think there is no fun anymore? u have already explored all ur funs with ur other frens already issit? i juz cant believe it..
and so.. we abandoned the plan of going sentosa.. we decided to go out instead.. and there u are.. trying to push back the time.. the worse.. telling us u r going for sbm thingy.. i would be much much more happy if u dun mention the sbm thing to me..
mayb.. sbm did accompanied u when u needed some one the most.. mayb tts the place where u can find the type of friendship tt u want.. fine.. i have nothing to say..
i have no more ideas on how to handle this matter already.. no matter wat we say.. u juz believe in ur own set of thinkings.. u dun accept wat we say.. u dun recoginse wat we do.. u r juz stubbon.. i noe u r a perfectionist.. u wanted a perfect friendship also.. but.. i can tell u.. there is no such thing as perfect frenship.. things wont go according to they way u want them to be..
