two days ago.. my grandma went back to indonesia with my aunt.. two days later.. my granny came to my house with my another aunt! haha.. aunts and grandmasss..
well.. they are also fm indonesia.. grannt is feeling unwell.. tts why she is here to seek treatment.. she is always sick.. a frequent visitor of the hospitals..
actually.. it made no difference whether they came or not.. cox i simply dun have the time to interact with them.. my grandma came to stay for abt 3 mths.. and i did't even have time for a full conversation with her.. all i said was juz" have u eaten? hihi.. i am back home" all the simple greetings.. never had i have the chance to start a conversation with her.. even if i have the chance, i simply juz devote the time to sleeping.. haha.. i am bad right?
but.. i am not veri used to my grandma living with us.. although it does seems the same as usual, i have to put on proper behaviour when i am at home.. cannot be too violent.. cannot have temper.. must be gentle.. must help to do housework.. all those stuffs that girls are suppose to do.. but obviously.. i did not do all those mentioned la.. and i guess.. my grandma did not have a veri good impression abt me.. haha.. she still think i am those who can't do housework at all.. tt kinda spoilt girl..
anyway.. since she has not been living with me since i am young.. i dun feel the bond with her.. wat i feel is tat she is my grandma.. thats all.. dun have the close feelings with her.. and i simply dunno wat to talk to her.. talk abt sch work? i dun think she would be interested with it.. talk abt my frens? she dun even noe them.. so.. i the end.. she juz do her stuffs while i do my stuffs.. haha..
now tt my granny is here.. i have to put on proper behavioir again.. but.. i doubt i will do tt.. cox i hardly have time to do hmwk already.. how to ahve time to put on my best behaviour for her to see? haha.. well.. hopefully have the time to chat with her..
saw tt guy again today on the bus.. hmm.. as usual.. he was sleeping.. and then.. when me and shaina went to buy contacts later after sch.. saw him again.. haha.. we were making some funny actions.. which i believed was saw by him.. oh NoNo.. diu lian arhx.. but then.. haha.. nvm.. juz like the blur look of his face..
i am damm tired now.. was rushing my gp essay yester.. and then.. i realise tt i wrote the wrong topic.. haha.. well.. i dun care already.. i dun wanna redo.. i guess its abit out of point..
pe was fun today.. played ball games today.. we won.. so happy.. but i am feeling veri dead now.. cox had choir today also..
all my energy is being used up.. choir is beginning to be veri routined.. sectionals and then combine practice.. although we are learning new songs every sessions.. i dun feel as much fun as before already.. why why?? cox i am tired? kinda.. cox i dun like the long hrs of waiting inbetween.. and i simply dun love to get home at 8 plus at night and still ahve to complete my tonnes of hmwk when my mind simply turn blank.. but.. i love to sing.. haha.. why cant they sing pop songs? tt will be so fun.. have acapella.. tts even better.. hee.. but then.. above all.. i miss NORA!!!
jay chou's song.. "feng" the music sounds sOo sad.. make me feel like tearing.. make me think of a particular person.. but.. this person no longer holds the position in my heart anymore..
i think.. i am getting stronger and stronger.. for i can now teared internally.. without expressing my emotions.. or i shld say.. i have grown used to my emotionless face?? haha.. anyway.. to me.. thats a great achievement which i have cultivated for 2 yrs already..
