Rules:The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover. Need to mention the sex of their lover.Tag 8 victims and let them know u tagged them.Replies can be given in any way.If tagged the second time, there is no need to post again.TARGET: Guys(for gals) Girls(for guys)


hmm.. ke xin tagged me abt this thingy.. okay.. shall play along then..

sex of my lover: of cox a male.. i am a straight girl.. hahax

• tat guy must know how how to give me surprises
• he must love me more than i love him
• accompany me when ever i need him
• dun miss me so much.. give me the opportunity to miss him
• know me inside out
• prove to me tat i am special
• must dress up appropriately when out with me
• romantic

Princess ended @
9:50 PM

chocolates~~~

i have a chocolate feast today..

chocolates for breakfast, chocolates for lunch, chocolate for tea breaks, chocolates for dinner, chocolate ice cream for supper..

oh no.. i am going to be real fat!!!

anyway.. i still love chocolates~~

chocolates make me happy!!!

hahas..

finally finish watching a typical taiwan's drama show.. hmm.. as usual.. i will be bluffed by the show.. haha.. well.. not bluff la.. it juz make u dream and think how wonderful if ur life would be the same as wat happen in the shows..

e mo zai shen bian.. hear before? hmm.. many ppl watch this drama series already.. and they say is damm nice.. sOo.. i watch.. i think its ok la.. its juz similar with all the taiwan's show.. not much diff.. stories are almost the same.. juz tt the ppl who are acting are different..

well.. in the stories, the couples are always sOOo sweet and loving.. the guys would always do some romatic stuffs to touch the girls.. will tt happen in real life?

i guess girls are juz too memorised by all these shows tt they also expect their guys to do the same thing as wat happen in show..

but.. they juz forget tt guys arn't tt clever after all.. hahass..

tired tired.. i spend my weekend watching tt 20 episode drama.. shall catch some sleep Now..

Princess ended @
9:31 PM

friday..

its suppose to be the happiest day of the week... yet i feel so tired and sleepy every friday night..

oh no.. getting old.. i dun used to feel tt when i am in sec sch.. or even last yr..

this is definitely a veri stressful yr.. its onli the beginning of the yr and i felt as if i am already in june or july.. haixx...

sch sch and sch work.. and cca..
my routine life tt i have been on for the pass 2 mths..

i wanna do something tt i like..
but there isnt spare time for me..

arHHhH..

talked to my last yr chinese teacher..
i jux simply poured all my troubles abt studies on to her..

i think i simply juz wanna cry already..although i still dun realli feel the stress yet..i juz dun like the arrangement of my time now..its juz too boring..

i told her abt gaYee.. i told her abt her wat the chi teacher say.. i tell her abt the dropping sub thingy and i tell her abt cca..

and then.. her conclusion is..
instead of dropping any sub.. stop going choir too often.. as it is talking up alot of my time..

but then.. how can i? chrizz is talking abt the attendance already.. besides.. if we want to achieve something.. there is a need for constant practicing..

and then.. my parents always say i dun study hard enf.. cox i am always not at home..

so how?

mr naufal's words kept circling round my mind..

he told me once tt ppl shld't be too greedy..

for now.. i am definitly greedy.. i got 4A level subs while ppl who are clever than me onli had take 3 subs.. ppl with 4 subs quited their ccas while mine is so time consuming.. see.. greedy me..

but then.. i shall persever on..

cox shulin is STRONG!!!

i had endured the hardest time of my life and survive already.. so.. nothing can make me down!!

hahas..

love my day.. love my life!

Princess ended @
8:30 PM

its a super scary day today!

kevin appeared outside the sch today waiting for me..
he says he wants to accompany me home

heyz.. i dun need accompanyment.. i prefer to be alone! when i wanted u to come.. u dun come and when i dun want to see u anymore.. u keep appearing!

wat is this.. leave me alone!! and get out of my sight.. i dun like the face of urs and i dun like ur presence around me..

luckily i boared the bus without letting him following me up the bus.. but then.. he say he will appear around my house area..

so sacry.. i juz hate this feeling.. make the butterflies in my stomach fly fm the afternoon till now..

i wanted to tell someone abt this.. juz nice tot of him.. so i tell him.. but then.. his reactions made me abit sad.. he did't bother much.. as if it doesnt matter if i am safe or not.. why why why???

can he read more into my words??

Princess ended @
9:03 PM

sUppPPper sADdDd!!!

i got the lowest marks for my chinese in my class..
feeling veri demoralised..

i might be good among my frens..
but i am sOo lousy in front of the teacher..

i juz need more practice..
and yet i have been onli saying and not putting in any efforts..\

bio spa is gone case for today
i think i left out alot of detailss....
arhx!
hate spaasss..

oh no..
i think i am in deep deep troubles..

my bio is not good
so is my chinese
beginning to wonder if my mother's word will realli come true.

she ask me yester
"will u be ablt to graduate this yr?"

she ask me this kinda qn eh..
but then.. for now.. i think i realli have to work hard

but..
where is my motivation????

anyway..
my day end off happy for me!!

he talked to me!!

muhahahzzz

love my day.. love my life!

Princess ended @
9:49 PM

this is the lyrics written by lin jun jie is his album..
i fell in love with this song and lyrics the moment i listen to it..

down

i cant believe it.
tell me i am dreaming
that we are still"we"

it was amazing
said you were lucky
that you found me

it was on a rainy day that we met
you didt have a place to go
i said we just met so lets go slow
but no
you just told me to keep you from the cold

sorry i can't take it
why did u fake it
why did we kiss

and i'm just down
you left me with a note without a sound
i figured i must have been such a child
you'll never know how much i've been around
how my heart just frowns

if you're down
i'll be your teddy bear,
i'll be your clown
i'll take you round and round and
if you don't mind i could be your standing ground
even if that means i'd drown

and baby, that'll be my one last vow.

Princess ended @
4:23 PM

lin jun jie's album is out today! wanted to get it today.. but.. had such a busy day today till i forgot abt it.. till my bro ask me abt it.. haha.. he went to buy it la.. yeah yeah.. shall listen to it.. but then.. normally i dun find his songs nice when i first listen to his new songs.. i will onli like it when i listen to after a few times.. haha..

i juz think he is super talented la.. haha.. ok.. i think i will go crazy talking abt him.. hmm..

anyway.. so happy tt weekend is here..

times seems to fly..
it flies pass u when u r unaware
it creapt pass u when u dun get hold of it..

looking back..
u regreted on stuffs which u did not treasure
yet.. u cant do anything much brood abt it..

one yr ago..
u and i steped on this same place..

one yr later..
i am there and u r gone..
u are into some one elses arms..
leaving me in lurch
and yet.. u blame me on not holding u tight..

passing by the route tt i used to take with you..
memorries of us flashed into my mind
i wanted to get rid of it..
but my heart does not listen to me..
as..
it does not belongs to me anymore..

i was hopping not to see u again
yet deep in my heart..
i was hopping madly for u to appear
right in front of me again..
to the moments where u r mine once more..

i wanted to be strong.. i acted strong
and u believed..
without realising
the amt of tears tt i have shed for u..
when i let u off..

as i am busying attending to my broken heart,
u came along..
giving me the wamth and love tt i used to recieve
u gave me hopes
and yet u destroyed them right after
leaving me to bleed again..

finally..
i wake up..
wake up fm the dream tt i refuse to acknowlege,
refuse to accept..

but fm now on..
i promise myself..
not to be affected by u anymore..

for.. i had already let u go..
i have lost all my love for u..

Princess ended @
8:46 PM

today is valentines day.. and i had a super long, busy and tiring day today..

this is the first valentines where i am not spending with a guy.. but my good frens instead.. actually.. i kinda like the feeling of celebrating with frens.. sOOo nice and heart warming.. the feelings where u cant find when u r together with ur counterparts..

i simply like the atmosphere of this yr's valentines day.. the love tt is spread among frens.. which is soOo lovely.. or maybe cox most of my frens are not attached this yr? haha.. my mind is not working again.. sOo.. i shall write it short..

i like to be santa clause.. love the happy faces of my frens when they receive my presents.... no wonder they say giving is better than receiving..

meet up with mao and ting for dinner.. had a super long chat with them... good to now tt they are all doing fine.. more importanly.. enjoying their life..

juz like me!!! haa..

Princess ended @
10:41 PM

today.. is a family day.. wake up quite early in the morning.. hmm.. nine plus.. is tt considered early? hee.. i think so.. well.. did some of my homework.. but then.. feeling quite sleepy after sometime.. so.. went back to sleep again at 11 plus.. stupid right? hahass..

wake up at 12 plus.. for lunch.. yummy yummy.. mum wipped up somthing we had not eat for a long long time.. super yummy.. waited for my bros frens to leave the house before we can go out.. haha.. feel abit bad.. like chasing them out of the house like tt.. but then.. when my bros frens come to my house.. they will stay and play for a long time and not leave the house.. haha.. who ask my bro to be sOoo friendly.. or are they attracted to the amt of games tt i have in my house? yeah.. maybe.. cox wat ever my bros want.. he will juz get it.. its sOoo nice to be the youngest..

brought granny out to look at singapore's scenery.. went to esplanade.. hmm.. go there of cox got take photos.. loads and loads.. but i think i am not going to post it here.. cox i look fat in those photos!! okay.. i admit.. i am fat.. sOoo many ppl have been tellin me and yet i have done nothing to reduce my weight and fats.. i have planned sOo many activities for me to lose weight and yet i have done none. feeling sOoo guilty!!!

nvm.. maybe eating less will help.. haha.. but this is the worse way of losing weight for me.. cox i will end up eating more chocolates.. well.. watever.. i noe i will lose it when the stress comes..

received hy msg juz now.. hmm.. kinda surprise he smsed me.. er.. well.. he wanted to look at how well have i been.. hmm.. but too bad.. i went out with my family.. anyway.. got to noe tt he his doing quite well nowadays.. it doesnt matter anymore if we still meet or not.. i wonder how awkward it will be when we meet again.. will it??

talk to mao mao yester also.. most of the ppl give me the same answer to wat i shld do.. yeah.. i knew it perfectly wat they say are correct.. but i am jux a stubbon ger.. i juz refuse to believe it.. for i wish for a mircle to happen.. haha..

may my fairytale come true..
i still like to be in my dream land..

the flu bug came to me!!! i am sneezing non stop since the morning.. arhx.. hate it.. i dun wanna get sick.. dun like the feeling..

feeLing.. terrible..

Princess ended @
9:33 PM

went shopping with tingz today.. cox.. there is no choir.. haha.. super happy.. cox.. finaally have some time to go shopping..

yar.. we are shopping for v day presents..

my dear frens.. u r going to get presents fm me!!

hee.. spent out time deciding where to go.. finally.. we decided to go far east.. this is the first time i combed almost every corner of far east in order to find the shop tt tingz wants.. and finally.. when we found the shop.. it was the shop tt we had past by some time ago.. arhx.. make me walk up and down.. left and right.. sOOO tiring..

found her present for clor.. but.. i haven found mine.. cox.. i ahven had the idea of wat to buy.. or.. the things tt i wanted to buy couldnt be found..

sOo.. we decide to go suntect.. hee.. i found the things tt i want.. sOo happy.. but.. the things need to be packaged.. sOOo.. haven been wondering how shld i package it.. we wandered off suntect while thinking.. tingz is hungry.. so went to buy subway for her dinner.. and then.. saw one of the choir senior, aileen working in junoir burger.. didt notice her at first until she call me.. i was sOo suprise to see her there.. cox i tot she working some where else.. then.. why i buy the food down there.. she give me discount! so nice.. but then.. she say till sOo loudly tt her manager heard her.. then her manager ask her to soften abit.. cox the other customers will hear.. haha.. she is damm nice oh.. but then.. so sorry to get her scolded by her manager..

well.. the fries there are damm nice la.. nice nice.. go and eat ok? hee.. well.. went to bugis to search futher for our v day presents.. and then.. we stayed in lovely land for quite a long long time.. and then finally found the stuffs we want.. hee..

i am so happy with the stuffs i bought.. and i wonder how my frens face will be when i give them the present.. hee..

talk to tingz quite alot juz now.. haha.. i think.. i have a better idea of wat i shld do now.. haha.. but then.. wat will i do??

i am super tired now.. zZzzZzz..

Princess ended @
9:52 PM

its raining today.. i love the rain..

but.. the rain didt manage to cheer me up today..

i miss the time where i played in the rain.. i miss my smiles and my laughters.. and i do miss my long hair as well..

i think i do miss him too.. i get to see him quite often.. but seein him is equal to never see.. cox he always seemed so near yet soOo far.. how i wish i can just get this person off my mind.. but then.. it seems tt he have been coming back this past few days.. or i shld say.. he has been always on my mind.. juz tt things have not triggered me to think abt him..

sadly.. many things had reminded me of him these 2 days.. probably due to the frequent apprearance of him around me.. i may have notice him but he might not even care if i exist or not.. well.. becoz i had nver expressed any of him feelings to him before..

well.. i seriously had never expressed my feelings to anybody before.. tts why.. i lost the one i whom i am deeply in love with.. i hate that feeling.. no one can understand how deeply hurt am i to see the two of them around.. no amts of words can heal the cut.. no amt of tears can make up for the pain i have to endure..

once is enf.. i dun wanna suffer it again.. jy suggest me to be more initiative.. but.. i juz cant make myself do tt.. i juz cant.. i dun have the courage.. nor the confident.. i am afraid.. i will think alot.. and.. this is certainly not me.. i juz wanna be myself.. how i wish i can go back to the days where i dun seems to care so much.. the carefree and the straight forward me.. some times.. i do wish i am the old me.. how nice if i am not forced to grow up.. at least.. i could enjoy my life more..

but i guess.. i juz cared too much of the outside factors to care for my own feelings.. mao mao says.. i listen to other ppl's problem but dun share my own problems with other ppl.. well.. its kinda true.. cox till today.. i still dunno how to share my problems with my frens.. i am too used to ppl telling me their problems tt i dunno how to open my heart and share my problems..

anyway.. how many ppl realli noe me?? recently.. i juz realise the impression i give ppl are veri different.. it seems tt with different frens.. i have different behaviours.. but.. none of these behaviour seems to let ppl noe wat am i realli inside me..

for now.. i juz longed for the fun and laughter i used to have..

someone.. help me??

Princess ended @
6:20 PM

tpjc annual road run was held today.. well.. actually.. the distance didt seemed long.. haha.. it seemed much longer last yr.. is it because of the frequent running we have tt lead us to running faster? haha.. my class girls almost all came in together.. cox.. we said tt we are going to walk together.. but then.. we started running the moment the race start.. cox everybody is running.. no one is walking.. sOo.. we juz follow the crowd.. but in the end.. we did walk.. but then.. we did more running than walking.. we jog and talk and crap at the same time.. haha.. multi tasking..

but then.. today was kinda a sad day.. he saw him today.. he didt talk to me till i talk to him.. i am sOOoo sad.. he always have alot of stuffs to talk and crap with other ppl.. but he doesnt seems to talk to me at all.. he doesnt intiate talkings with me.. am i a person not nice to talk to?

i am simply sad.. i juz wish he talk to me more often..

frens always consult me abt their relationships.. but then.. when it come to myself.. i juz cant convince myself with wat i told my frens.. wat a failure.. maybe.. i am not as good as u ppl think..

anyway.. i think some ppl juz take me for granted.. come to me onli when they have problems.. i dun like these feelings.. cant ppl be nicer? i am juz sick of it!!

Princess ended @
6:08 PM

two days ago.. my grandma went back to indonesia with my aunt.. two days later.. my granny came to my house with my another aunt! haha.. aunts and grandmasss..

well.. they are also fm indonesia.. grannt is feeling unwell.. tts why she is here to seek treatment.. she is always sick.. a frequent visitor of the hospitals..

actually.. it made no difference whether they came or not.. cox i simply dun have the time to interact with them.. my grandma came to stay for abt 3 mths.. and i did't even have time for a full conversation with her.. all i said was juz" have u eaten? hihi.. i am back home" all the simple greetings.. never had i have the chance to start a conversation with her.. even if i have the chance, i simply juz devote the time to sleeping.. haha.. i am bad right?

but.. i am not veri used to my grandma living with us.. although it does seems the same as usual, i have to put on proper behaviour when i am at home.. cannot be too violent.. cannot have temper.. must be gentle.. must help to do housework.. all those stuffs that girls are suppose to do.. but obviously.. i did not do all those mentioned la.. and i guess.. my grandma did not have a veri good impression abt me.. haha.. she still think i am those who can't do housework at all.. tt kinda spoilt girl..

anyway.. since she has not been living with me since i am young.. i dun feel the bond with her.. wat i feel is tat she is my grandma.. thats all.. dun have the close feelings with her.. and i simply dunno wat to talk to her.. talk abt sch work? i dun think she would be interested with it.. talk abt my frens? she dun even noe them.. so.. i the end.. she juz do her stuffs while i do my stuffs.. haha..

now tt my granny is here.. i have to put on proper behavioir again.. but.. i doubt i will do tt.. cox i hardly have time to do hmwk already.. how to ahve time to put on my best behaviour for her to see? haha.. well.. hopefully have the time to chat with her..

saw tt guy again today on the bus.. hmm.. as usual.. he was sleeping.. and then.. when me and shaina went to buy contacts later after sch.. saw him again.. haha.. we were making some funny actions.. which i believed was saw by him.. oh NoNo.. diu lian arhx.. but then.. haha.. nvm.. juz like the blur look of his face..

i am damm tired now.. was rushing my gp essay yester.. and then.. i realise tt i wrote the wrong topic.. haha.. well.. i dun care already.. i dun wanna redo.. i guess its abit out of point..

pe was fun today.. played ball games today.. we won.. so happy.. but i am feeling veri dead now.. cox had choir today also..

all my energy is being used up.. choir is beginning to be veri routined.. sectionals and then combine practice.. although we are learning new songs every sessions.. i dun feel as much fun as before already.. why why?? cox i am tired? kinda.. cox i dun like the long hrs of waiting inbetween.. and i simply dun love to get home at 8 plus at night and still ahve to complete my tonnes of hmwk when my mind simply turn blank.. but.. i love to sing.. haha.. why cant they sing pop songs? tt will be so fun.. have acapella.. tts even better.. hee.. but then.. above all.. i miss NORA!!!

jay chou's song.. "feng" the music sounds sOo sad.. make me feel like tearing.. make me think of a particular person.. but.. this person no longer holds the position in my heart anymore..

i think.. i am getting stronger and stronger.. for i can now teared internally.. without expressing my emotions.. or i shld say.. i have grown used to my emotionless face?? haha.. anyway.. to me.. thats a great achievement which i have cultivated for 2 yrs already..

Princess ended @
8:57 PM

people..

i juz dun understand people..

for one moment.. they can treat u like enemy.. and for the other moment.. they treat u as if u r their friends..

wat is this? won't u feel wierd if someone whom u does talk to juz blabber bad stuffs about u? and then.. for the next moment.. she is smiling at u as if u and her are good frens.. wat is this? u are making me damm confused.. is this suppose to be a good thing or bad thing? i would rather u dun talk to me or smile at me.. at least.. i won't be sOo lost..

looks.. it can be veri deciving also..

by lookin.. u tot.. they are good ppl.. they leave good impressions in u.. but then.. as u get to noe them better.. they dissappoint u.. cox they dun go with their looks.. u tot they are nice and friendly ppl.. but.. they are juz a bunch of people who look at things by their covers.. u forever wont get to noe wat they will be doing next..

and for some ppl.. u forever wont noe wat they are thinking.. for a moment..they care for u.. concern abt u.. but.. for the next moment.. they juz leave u alone in the cold.. leave u alone to wonder wat had happen.. and when u approach them.. they jux treat u as if they have not know u before..

can u people stop doing tat to me!!!

i am lost!!

veri lost..

i juz wanna find the answer.. to my wonders..

but..

i noe.. nobody will find the answer for me..

for i am juz a nobody..

Princess ended @
8:10 PM