wats happening to the ppl around me? or i shall say wat happen to all my good friends? why do they seems so far when they were juz next to me? or even when i am juz talking to them? i hate the feelings.. whY whY whY???
ting is like tt, mao is also like tt..
why why why..
juz talk to ting juz now.. but she doesnt seems right to me.. wad happen? she does not want to tell me. she say nothing happen.. but she does not seems right.. she missed call me in the evening.. hmm.. sure have somthing to tell me de right? or i am thinking too muxh? i dun think so eh.. i juz hate the feelings.. knowing the somthing has happen, yet i dunno wat is happening and i cant do anything to help.. feeling so useless..
next is mao.. dunno wat happen to him.. this days.. he come like.. soOo.. arh.. i dunno how to say.. he seems to be another changed person.. i tink cox he loses faith in love.. well.. its true tt sometimes after a realationship u will feel different.. but the way he handles his realations.. it doesnt seems to be the way he will do.. i dunnoo...
juz talk in msn with him.. and i flare up with him.. it had been a long time since i ever flare up.. wats wrong with me? why do i get pissed so easily? haix.. i dunno la.. dun feel like talking to him already.. dun feel like talking to ting also.. so i ask her to sleep..
i hate this kinda feelings.. why it seems tt everybody is getting so far away.. it has been a long time since i last saw joey.., how is she now, i dunno.. wend.. juz saw her few days ago.. but then.. juz some normal greetings onli.. the close feelings is lost..
why.. why everything has become so superficial? why ppl like to act? cant they be real? is there really no one who will speak the truth? i always believe tt ppl will tell the truth.. but then.. it always end up tt they are telling me not the truth.. the things they say and the things they do are so differnt.. make me lose all the faith in them. yet i still believe them, thinking tt one day they will tell the truth.. but then.. i think.. they all are treating me like an idiot.. i tink.. i shld learn not to trust people so easily..
sometimes, i realli think tat some of the ppl beside me are so fake.. fake till i feel so tired with them.. i juz want to get away.. get away with all those fake ppl.. i put in my real heart and soul and yet u bluff me.. lie to me.. i hate those ppl!!!!!
feel like crying, feel like shouting, feel like scolding. feel like beating ppl, feel like playing in the rain.. feel like hugging my dearest fren.. arhx.. my dearest fren.. still have ma? haha..
when ever someone tell me something. i assume tt they are telling me the truth.. but then.. after tt, i will always hear a differnt version of wat happen.. why is is like tt? which one shall i believe? when i found out tt tat someone is lying to me.. i feel so hurt.. no matter close frens or not close frens.. i feel hurt equally..
